[Richard Rook]

these days I feel like a sore loser quite often, and that fucking brings me down
I must remember that I have a limited capacity of energy and I know I can't go on on a sheer force of will cause I don't have any
it means I must at least eat enough
and who threw his breakfast into a trachbin cause there was a crab meat or something?
that would be me
too nervous(

and the ways back are cut. now I don't have enough money for a ticket home.
Dashenka told me it's okay and at the very last I will be deported to Russia freely. it's gonna be stressful, for sure, but a hell of adventure
but it also means that I'm going to betray some people, first of all

sometimes I feel that it's not me who lives this life
I'm watching it all from a distance and can't do anything

I'm not okay

@темы: my life, something personal, Я размышлял (с), China 2016-2017

Comments

[~Хару-Ичиго~]

Котик, держись там! Может акклиматизируешься и всё наладится. Не сдавайся! Попробуй!

[Hisana Runryuu]

you're okay

[Richard Rook]

~Хару-Ичиго~, ну, тут уже дело не в акклиматизации, тут всё ок)). Всякие бюрократические вопросы, виза и моё нелегальное положение здесь.

[Richard Rook]

Hisana Runryuu, not quite, but it's okay not to be okay)

[~Хару-Ичиго~]

Richard Rook, а как нелегальное? Я думала ты преподавать приехал.

[Richard Rook]

~Хару-Ичиго~, а одно другому не мешает)